Let's get real

So far my journey has been unbelievable. I have seen, done and tasted many new things and I am thankful for this. I have met many new people. I have been able to do things that I could never have even dreamed of. I haven't been posting much in the last couple weeks, because I have been busy with a boy (I'll post about that later) and I've been sad. My posts about Thailand are almost done. 

I truly miss being around people who give a fuck about me. I know I am not ordinary and I say inappropriate things, and I get distracted easily...but that's just apart of my charm...? I have felt so alone in the last few weeks. I wasn't alone though, I was living in a house with people, but I felt like I was alone. Seriously I was beginning to count down the days until I get to go to Chile.

On top of my feelings of wanting to crawl under to covers and not leave I was scared of running a workshop. I was scared and even considered running away from it. Previous experience with one of my practicums for Social Work was haunting me. I had to do group work, make crafts, and things with groups of children. My feedback from my immediate supervisor was something to the effect of "Natalie rarely has any ideas and when she does they are not good. Natalie is not creative and lacks potential. I will make an adequate teachers assistant". The comments got far more nasty and I would like to forget them all together. Only a handful of people other than myself have read them, these comments made me cry. Honestly they have been at the back of my head for some time and are probably one of the reasons as to why I didn't look harder for work in my field sooner. After discussing how I felt with my current supervisor (who is amazing by the way) he is right. 

I AM AMAZING! I did workshops and they went great, I had great ideas and my creativity was appreciated. I am so happy that I came to ARI. I felt very supported and free to do anything. Exactly what I needed to be able to get back on track for success. 

I'm living my story.

Currently I am in Taiwan, and I am alone here I am not with anybody, but I do not feel alone. This is just part of travelling alone, sometimes you feel alone and sometimes you do not. Those moments of wanting to stay under the covers all day, eventually pass. What's important is that you do not stay under the covers, go do and experience amazing things. Especially if you are in an amazing place. 

Thank you to all of my friends for listening to me complain and whine when I needed to. Love you so much!