Where I belong

I think I am exactly where I am supposed to be. This may sound a little crazy, but I am a little crazy-so whatever?

This is a double edged sword. With all the good there is always bad, but I would never trade any of the bad in my life--ever. Everything in my life that has happened to me has made me into the person that I am and I wouldn't change that.

I feel like I have met my Mahout before, I feel like I have done some of these things before...kind of like de-ja-vu. This feeling makes me feel like I am exactly where I am suppose to be right now. I think de-ja-vu is the world telling you that you are doing what you are supposed to be doing. Philosofamily, I would not like to discuss free will here - but I do have it.

Mandy read my tarot cards before I left. For me, the cards talked about my leaving and finding my way among other things. I feel really good about it, I think those cards are right. So maybe they are right about the other tings too, Mandy. We shall see - time will tell right?
This adventure so far has been just amazing, empowering, and enlightening. I feel better about everything in life - although I want to stay in the jungle forever. I fall asleep at night listening to grass rattling, elephants eating, my fan blowing and elephants tooting. Mostly Haad tooting - he is so loud sometimes. But I love it. This is an experience like no other.

However, there have been and I am sure there will be many more times when I feel completely alone and disconnected from people, both here and back home. I begin to miss friends and my old life (which is gone forever). Sometimes I wish I could just take a little piece of my friends with me, I realize that I am a little piece of them. I have grown so much and learned so much from my friends and family. I am a product of all of them. Then as I think that I am alone I get a message from someone, I get a snap chat, I get someone chirping up that they miss or love me. That is what helps to keep me sane, that is what helps to keep me going here. Even though I am so far away, my family still loves me. The love and support of my family (friends=family that I have picked. Family=friends+blood family) is what I need, and I appreciate so much. I appreciate so much that I have that. So thank you for thinking of me and telling me that you are.

Much love to all